about me

my name is Mathie! you can write the M in upper or lower case, i don't care. in most places, my username is blackmagemathie (cuz i love black mages from Final Fantasy). but in spaces i've been in longer, i might go by mathos, or blackmagemathos.

i live in France, and am fluent in both French (native) and English. tho for literary works, i'm much more comfortable writing in the former.

i hold strong values, including (but not limited to): antifascism, anticapitalism, feminism, lgbtq+ being human rights, supporting Palestine in face of its ongoing genocide. it would honestly be faster to tell you what i don't feel strongly about.

basically, i'm a proud woke. but what am i precisely? a communist? an anarchist? i honestly don't know myself; i'm not interested in finding a mythical perfect label to describe my views.

i genuinely never related to my physical humanity. i like the umbrella term of alterhuman; think of it as being trans in its broad sense, but for species rather than gender.

i don't embrace any kind of mysticism like past lives or souls. i simply have dysphoria regarding my physical humanity, and desire a specific nonhuman body. i mitigate my dysphoria by carefully controlling my online image, and embracing my nonhuman identity in as many ways and safe spaces i can.

unless there's a good reason not to do so, please respect this image when i'm projecting it. it's not a trick, a roleplay, or a kink; only what i feel comfortable as.

you can find out more about my cool nonhuman self in this fancy, dedicated page!

i process emotions, sensory inputs, social situations and a lot more things differently from an average person.

i'm formally diagnosed with autism and adhd. and chances are, some more could follow (such as generalised anxiety).

these conditions significantly impact my interactions, so here are some guidelines to keep in mind if you communicate with me.

• be explicit. i'm bad at reading subtext, and can misinterpret tone.

• avoid small talk. it tires me real hard, real fast. please keep my attention and energy focused on what really matters to you.

• be patient with my poor auditory processing. simultaneous voices, strong accents, and loud environments easily disturb my hearing. my asking for people to repeat themselves doesn't come from a lack of attention.

• prefer text to voice. i like having the time to process and respond. i only go on calls with friends, or people i know well.

• feel free to reach me. i rarely initiate conversations without established reasons. please don't take my silence as offense: it simply means i have nothing to say.

because my conditions impair my life significantly, i am effectively disabled. regardless how accomodating society is, there will always be situations and tasks in which i struggle or hurt.

i'm trans; because my gender differs from the one i was assigned at birth. simple as that.

more precisely, i'm transfem and nonbinary. i have a gender, that is definitely feminine, definitely not masculine, and definitely beyond a mere man-woman spectrum.

i largely go by "she", but enjoy a good "they", and cool neopronouns like fae, xey, shey or even tzey.

don't call me "man", "dude" or other masculine nouns; they're not gender-neutral to me, so don't use them with me, period.

i'm also asexual! i don't experience sexual attraction towards people, and have no interest in sexual activities with others in real life.

finally, i'm panromantic/sexual and polyamorous; i don't have preferences in gender or number of partners (matter of fact, i have two now!).