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bad news! i still need to be on anxiolytics for the time being; turns out keeping that spare tablet of xanax was a great decision. recall how i was supposed to take 3 of these a day, and stop all at once? didn't go great. the metaphorical glass holding the dark stuff at bay creaked and cracked a loooot. holding on until the next appointment with my doctor was difficult, even if a lot less than, yknow, back when i wasn't on anything at all.
good news! saw the doctor last friday and got prescribed more xanax. i barely get dark thoughts at all now. it will now be 3 weeks since i've been on meds, and these antidepressants seem to be starting to hit. i'm able to do a whole bunch of things each day again. next cognitive behavioral therapy appointment is this thursday. self-reporting times i feel bad has been getting harder; because adhd, but also because... i feel less bad? task failed successfully? we'll see.
anyway; given how this fundraiser's goal has been not only met, but exceeded, i'll be closing it in a week (dec 16th). thanks again to everyone who contributed. you can count on me to repay that by living my life to the fullest and continuing therapy. thank you, thank you immensely once more. 💖